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autobiography shut up and read. my name is Lydia and I first cried on 23 September. that's all you need to know. life has always been a huge roller coaster ride for me, full of ups and downs, making me start to get tired of it. I feel like getting love drunk, falling into this beautiful dream and not coming out to face the reality.

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today I just cried o.O no surprise there .. after my mum went out, there was a call, and I thought it was from Yun Ling, so I answered it, then it was my grandma, then she asked me questions, blah blah blah, I said mum was at home sleeping ( lie, she was outside ), and then she asked me where my grandpa was. I said he was at the hospital and he was sick, then she asked something then say bye alr, but then her tone like very, ugh. - 5:45pm - my mum came in and then started fucking scolding me for answering the phone and telling her. what was I supposed to do? say everyone sleeping? no one at home? all say idk? she wants me to be a liar! yea, the more I lie, the more I'll want to lie, and she wants me to lie?! so, yea, her retribution: I'm lying to her ALWAYS now. yea, so she fucking scold me, and then I cried, crying now too .. at Langkawi, she asked me whether I hated her, I said no, then she asked me if I LIKED her, I said yes, but actually, I hated her, I don't like her, I don't love her. I love my daddy. she just scolds me whenever she likes! once, she came back from work and then I said hi mummy, and then she started trashing at me, saying what about her work blah blah blah talking about me, what the fuck did I do?! I just said hi! IT WASN'T MY FAULT SOMEONE FUCKING IRRITATED HER AT WORK. IT WASN'T MY FAULT TO BE POLITE. IT WASN'T MY FAULT! SHE JUST TRASHES AT ME WHEN SHE WANTS TO. oh yea, and now she asks me NOT TO ANSWER ANY PHONE CALLS. so great uhs, next time she call I won't answer, let her scold me, then I'll be thinking in my mind, it was YOU who didn't let me answer ANY phone calls, you fucker. I'll only answer my daddy's calls next time. and of course, secretly your phone calls x] but hey, she can check the records, so I might as well not charge the phone? =.- YEA, AND WHEN I DON'T GREET HER, SHE JUST SCOLDS ME. HA, I THOUGHT IT WAS MY FAULT THAT I WAS POLITE?! SO NOW DON'T GREET LA, THEN ALSO KENNA SCOLDED?! WHAT KIND OF FUCKING MOTHER ARE YOU?! DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYONE BUT YOURSELF. I WONDER HOW EVERYONE STANDS YOU, I KNOW HOW DADDY STANDS YOU, HE'S TALKED TO ME SOOOO MUCH ABOUT YOU, YOU JUST DON'T KNOW IT. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I HATE YOU, YOU EVIL WITCH!